A few days ago i made a post about me starting working at a factory, grad has been very kind in providing messages of support and tips on how to deal with physical exhaustion and keeping healthy.
today, i don’t know what to do or to think, im one week in and seriously thinking in quitting, can’t take anymore, not so much about physical exhaustion, but mentally, even cried in the bathroom today.
and that is what is bothering me, how to come to terms with being so weak. im not trying to make anyone fell pity or something, especially when we still have colonies where things are hardcore and palestinians getting massacred.
like, idk what to do, i can’t do mental work because i can’t get a fucking job in it, and I’m not handling physical work, and confused about how being weak and not even capable of taking care of myself and handle a job, and be useful in a revolution or be up to the same level of many brave people fighting for the rights to exist, or something as simple as following party discipline.
sometimes i which i could just cease to exist, that way would stop being dead weight and not smudge the good name of our comrades.
edit: i am really moved by your kindness, i will answer each soon.
I will say natural social anxieties may be getting on your way to get a position in mental work, which is extremely socially demanding, even in tech jobs.
There’s a chance that any place not 100% friendly may feel toxic, if your social expectations are not in a well prepared place.
Again, I think this is an amazing opportunity for you, as a person. To connect with people different than yourself, to become physically stronger, and to show and share our values, and work ethics.
And we’re here for support. Pm me if you’d like. :)