A few days ago i made a post about me starting working at a factory, grad has been very kind in providing messages of support and tips on how to deal with physical exhaustion and keeping healthy.
today, i don’t know what to do or to think, im one week in and seriously thinking in quitting, can’t take anymore, not so much about physical exhaustion, but mentally, even cried in the bathroom today.
and that is what is bothering me, how to come to terms with being so weak. im not trying to make anyone fell pity or something, especially when we still have colonies where things are hardcore and palestinians getting massacred.
like, idk what to do, i can’t do mental work because i can’t get a fucking job in it, and I’m not handling physical work, and confused about how being weak and not even capable of taking care of myself and handle a job, and be useful in a revolution or be up to the same level of many brave people fighting for the rights to exist, or something as simple as following party discipline.
sometimes i which i could just cease to exist, that way would stop being dead weight and not smudge the good name of our comrades.
edit: i am really moved by your kindness, i will answer each soon.
Excellent answer.
A further point is that capitalism goes hand in hand with formal equality. Employers expect the same from everyone (except where employees unionise/organise and push back). One factory worker gets the same quota as another. That kind of thing. Employers accept the logic of capitalism being efficient without question. So there’s no challenge against formal ‘equality’ or capitalist ‘efficiency’. In reality both are a load of bollocks.
Communists have another slogan, from each according to their ability, to each according to their need. @olgas_husband@lemmygrad.ml when it comes to what organised workers or the revolution asks of you, the request/expectation will be very different to what (and how) an employer asks of you. Just because capitalists haven’t yet employed you for mental labour, doesn’t mean that you’re not suited to it. The fact that you can’t get a job in something doesn’t mean you would be bad at it.
Other workers are also far more likely to understand the value and the need for training. If you would improve with physical/intellectual training/education, that can be arranged. That’s one of the reasons unions and revolutionary parties emphasise education among their ranks.
Capitalists don’t want to pay and won’t pay if they can get someone else to do the job who is already trained. Organised workers/revolutionaries see the potential in all workers and will be willing to help you reach yours. You don’t write someone off because they could be fitter or stronger, you ensure they have access to healthy food, clean water, adequate rest, and help them get fitter and stronger.
I have struggled many times to find work. It wasn’t until I read Capital that I understood that it’s not me; capitalism is just designed that way. It’s not you, either!
This isn’t my most coherent comment but hopefully you can see what I’m trying to say!
Great points!