Quitting vapes has been easier than I thought. God what a fucking waste of money. GP bulk billed my telephone appt. Amazing weather. Cats are happy. Friends have been in touch, they’re both related to my old workplace so I do have some nice memories and reflections of it finally. I still have daily violent fantasies of kneecapping or bashing the brains in of the person there who sexually assaulted and harassed me and also undermined my work but I think that’s part of the healing process. I hope I don’t see him though. I’m a pacifist and he can probably fight, but it might be ugly.

Work was good, took my colleague for some driving practise before their license test tomorrow. She’s another trans woman and working with and chatting with her has been fantastic. I’m not saying cis people are an issue to work with as my boss and other colleagues are also wonderful, but talking to someone who gets almost every bit of what I’m experiencing because they’re experiencing too is really nice. She’s also not at all the stereotypical trans woman either so we can also bitch about the gatekeepers and the lack of a real trans “tribe”.

Another kinda busy night of aa and such and some food, then bed before 9. Fuck it’s nice to feel like I’m in control of my future and my plans keep coming up milhouse.

Thanks for reading.