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  • Ok so this is just anecdotal, but I’ll give you a real life example of what this “management” can look like.

    I was told during pregnancy that if I would not lose weight, I’d leave my child motherless. I reacted to this medical violence by engaging in self hate fueled dieting that I did for two decades.

    This was a lifestyle where I spent well over 10 hours per week in vigorous exercise. I broke my spine, knees, got myocarditis. Was always sick with everything. Yet my bodysize remained obe,*e, like it has since I was a small child.

    I counted every calorie. On a scale. I kept a food diary, I was always in an outrageous deficit. At the end I had to fully fast every other day to maintain my still fat weight. I am not talking just a bit fat, but bmi properly in the high end.

    I made it into a profession. Coaching was the only way to sustain the ridiculous amounts of exercise I needed to stay thinner. My entire life revolved around it. I definitely did not read leftist books or engage in education for myself, I was just maintaining that weight.

    I am an autist who will follow the rules I make for myself all the way to the bitter end. When I say I counted calories it means I wrote down everything. I still have those diaries, they are the story of starvation by choice.

    And none of this was considered an ED. I was celebrated for it. For trying to force my body into the norm.

    Then someone said to me that you don’t have to live like this so I was finally given room to stop. I stopped looking at thin pictures of other women, I started looking at diverse bodies. My mental health and self-esteem got so much better as my body went back to the size it clearly likes to be. My hands and feet that were always cold are now warm.

    I studied a whole new profession after this, I am so much freer now. I realized a lot of my internal fat stigma was gender norm related. I embrace my masculine body now.

    It isn’t cico. Bodies are more complex than that.


  • I’m not sure what to say, but for one this isn’t currently a very fruitful discussion because the comments that are made are exactly the same tired ones that are always made everywhere and have been adressed a million times over. Sadly this is what these discussions always tend to turn into.

    The issue I suppose is that the othering of fat bodies is seen as a valid opinion and it is so deeply ingrained in our culture that this discussion always ends up going in circles around itself. There is very little empathy towards fat people and concern trolling is the norm. The way people refuse to engage in investigating this in themselves is hard to combat. The way fat people are dismissed is visible even in this thread imo.

    If people can’t see how relevant the issue of body size is to the issues of gender, norms, capitalist control, I don’t know what good it does to read the endless debatelord comments about deficits, habits or whatever people think it is about. It also puts us fat people in positions where we have to justify ourselves existing in our bodies over and over and I hate how even I justified my fatness as the good kind by stating how much I exercise.

    The thing is that every human has the same value, this includes fat people who do nothing at all to fit into norms. It is a norm at the end of the day. The discussion around this should be a lot deeper then what someone does or doesn’t eat. This goes so much deeper into everything and would require the kind of educational discussion where people are ready to listen and take on board the experiences of those who are harmed. First people would need to see that harm is being done and without solidarity this is very hard.

    I am sorry I don’t have any good answers, but the thread is nonetheless currently very painfull.




  • For what it’s worth, at the end of my few decade long “weight maintenance” the only way to maintain my then weight was opting to fast every other day entirely. Healthy? If you asked the experts, I was still too fat.

    Eating is not an addiction. Eating is not the issue. Behavior is not the issue. The issue is the construct that there is some one size a body should be that everyone fits in. This is no different than other strickt categories we are being put in. The “normal” that keeps being brought up is a statistical curve that was made by an eugenist, using fit male bodies as the baseline. It is inherently a racist construct as well.

    The way body size has been weaponized in pathriarchal culture and the way the medical and Western scientists took part in constructing the ideal is the issue. The way most people need to spend their lives on a diet to try and meet this ideal is the issue. The way these diets harm peoples health is the issue. The way this is used to control especially womens bodies is the issue.



  • Thank you for posting this. For a leftist platform the neoliberal individual responsibility stuff that comes up when weight is discussed here is disgusting.

    I know there has been discussions here on why not many women are comfortable here and this imo is one of the reasons. This is really not a safe space for people with EDs, body size trauma and medical trauma. I’ve seen medical experts valorized and people with said trauma belittled.

    There is a reason I block the self-improvement and fitness coms. But it seaps out from those like the thread yesterday. Such reddity strong self-hating or just fat hating people who need to read Fearing the Black Body or any feminist writings on how policing body size is tied to pathriarchy, capitalism, protestantism, eugenism and how this neoliberal self-governance stuff they do is not the Maoist taking care of the body and mind they think it is, but upholds a system of othering. The way all this impacts people in marginalized bodies is a big deal.