Ever find a way to deal with this?
Is it just that I’m unable to work as much as other people and should reduce my hours (not really easy though)
Or am I doing the wrong things, losing too much energy because of certain tasks or masking too much or something?
It’s so difficult to tell. And when you feel like all energy is used up, I’m no longer making good decisions at that point. So easy to waste time on useless stuff then.
Yeah. That’s often something I also have difficulties with.
I can deal with working, or I can do chores, cook, administration and keeping home.
But i can’t seem to do both.
If I’m working full time, I just don’t have the energy left to deal with these tasks. Which also quickly drops my energy further as now I’m eating less healthy, not keeping up with bills and living in a messy environment.
It’s hard to deal with. I’m lucky I can still last some time without working, but it won’t last forever. A few months at most.
I guess it could be. It seems to have gotten worse with each job I held.
I’m doing a bit better now, not having any work. But I’m not sure how to start a new job and keep it sustainable.
I’m really afraid of feeling this absolute exhaustion again and having to quit again.
Feels more like anxiety and fear to me, which eventually leads me to a shutdown and depression like symptoms.
I think that’s the best way to describe it.
Have you found anything that works for you to rebound quickly?
I think the period I worked from home was actually quite uncomfortable for me.
Initially it felt great, having more control over my environment and being able to take breaks at will.
But i also noticed that I spend way too much time on my computer. So i went from working to gaming and browsing without a moment in between.
At the moment it feels like I burned out myself on screen usage.
And I found it very hard to make friends or get to know people better. I’m already not good at this, but only having snippets of time with my colleagues combined with staying at home after hours meant that i basically had no moments to make new friends or spend time with the few people I know.
Makes it difficult to enjoy WFH now.
How do you do this at work though? Is nobody going to find it strange or all about it when you take such a break?
And how to actually have the break if you are in a busy/loud/uncomfortable environment?
I think i could build in some more breaks when working from home, but at work it’s almost impossible. I just don’t feel safe/comfortable at work, so I can’t really take a proper break.
Usually I work pretty regular hours 9-5/6. I find it difficult to cope with the fact that so many hours in a day are dedicated to working for somebody else, so i find it even harder to spend more time on maintenance activities to compensate for the fact that I’m working all day.
I’m really impressed by people that go to the gym early morning or straight after work.
Currently not working though. So I could easily fit in some exercise, but keeping the routine after going back to work is always the difficult part.
Thanks for the suggestion.
I can’t say I’m really doing a lot of sports. But I do hike a lot these days (the advantage is not having a job atm)
Usually I don’t feel much difference though. (Apart from physical tiredness and my skin feeling burned and dry, I dont deal well with the sun)
Do you think high intensity exercise will make a big difference? I’m a bit scared I’ll do something wrong since I quickly start feeling pain in my neck or knees when doing exercise.
So difficult to tell how much is too much, but still so enough to benefit from it.
Yeah, I was thinking the same. Seems like he just smashed through the wall.
ok, so seems like I will have to use a double bang then. It does not seem match ddg bangs 1:1 though. And some don’t seem to be working correctly on my instance (E.g. !!mc for metacritic redirects to the wrong page)
I use the closest one to me from searx.space. I suppose hosting an instance yourself will give you the best response times, but it always still takes a moment while it searches through multiple search engines. If you only care about the results of one engine (e.g. google) then you could disable the others. Might speed it up a bit.
I didn’t know that, very useful. I suppose this is only for using other search engines like google, bing, etc… right?
Or can it also search immediately on other websites like metacritic, rotten tomatoes by using bangs?
Yeah, this makes me feel like I don’t really want to go there. It’s frustrating, because it seems like when I follow the routine of a ‘normal’ person. I tend to get very tired and anxious over time. But If I want to find some routine more suited to myself, it will be practically impossible to survive.
That definitely helps. I find it difficult to get myself to exercise sometimes, but walking is something I can enjoy.
Yeah, I think I’m in the digging out stage now. It seems to be very difficult for me to take care of myself while I have to work for income.
Thanks for the suggestions! I will look into the book, and the website is great (I made something like this myself in my linked notes)
Therapy seems to be a bit harder for me. I didn’t have anyone with specific experience, and found that the typical talk therapy does not really benefit me (I already spent years researching this myself, so it does not really help to have somebody else repeat it to me). I’ll try to find somebody, but seems like it’s quite difficult.
I think the actual rule is: ‘no sexual misconduct’ aka rape, harrasment, etc.
Many of the rules are simplified for the course of 10 days. (easy to have no sexual misconduct if you have no sexual activities at all)
Same with the rule ‘No talking’. The actual rule is ‘Don’t speak harsh words, lies, or deception’. Which is again much easier if you simply don’t speak at all.
Ublacklist works with searx? Good to know, I want to try this myself.
Your search results must be so clean and useful.
That’s why I still prefer searx. Duck duck go is basically just Bing results, right?
Seems like you also have the option to use the open source mixtral and llama3 models.
Also, if all the requests from their users go through their api request, i suppose is much more private than using your own account.
I’m not sure how they plan to monetise this though. Ai chat is not that cheap actually.
I probably should try doing this.
But the cost of gym classes kinda scares me off. Especially at this moment when I’m not really earning any income.
Definitely feels like it would be easier to join a class than follow my own training plan though. And having some other people to motivate you sounds great.