I ask this because of the cost. I am willing to pay for an assessment in the lower end of the high cost range which assessments typical have. However, I want to know what it would do for me, if I already have enough evidence showing I’m autistic? I want a therapist who can help me with struggles relevant to being autistic. But I don’t know what an assessment would actually give me? I can see it potentially giving me access to a good therapist who specialises in autism. But can I do that without an assessment?

For those of you who are diagnosed, what has it done for you? Did it make any meaningful difference in your situation?

  • BOMBS@lemmy.worldM
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    Am I finding some of my “quirks” are getting stronger as I get older.

    I’ve noticed increase exponentially since I was diagnosed. It’s like I realized that I was masking and not everyone else is also trying to act normal, so I rebelled by slowly removing the mask while I connect with my true self. Now, I’m extra quirky and it continues to intensify to the point that I almost insist on not wearing a mask at any time. I still wear one that’s a bit transparent at work to keep things running smoothly, but my mask is nowhere as covering as it used to be.

    I’ve gotten even more unfocused and exhausted.

    I’ve experienced something similar, but I take it as I’m acknowledging my needs. Rather than force myself to accomplish all tasks by sheer will and dissociating from my sensory input and emotions, I acknowledge them and take steps to avoid over doing while also time to recover.

    With both of these together, I would say that I’m the most me I’ve ever been, and that has given me a sense of peace I hadn’t experienced before. It’s pretty odd, but in a really good way.

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      Thanks for sharing. I’m still dealing with the concern that if I become more me, and less.of a workaholic, it’ll negatively impact my career.

      I think living my truth whould be me sleeping a lot more and generally more lazy. Though I’m currently aiming to improve my career, aiming for a promotion and pay off the mountain of debit I’ve been struggling under.

      However the reality is that I have burst if productively where I get weeks of work done. Most of the day I am on lemmy here, or in a state of half sleep untill quitting time. I just jiggle my mouse so teams shows me as availible. So I’m not really all that productive now. But the illusion that I’m working hard for 8 hours a day in more important then what I am actually doing I guess.

      What’s worse is I like my job, it’s good work that actually helps people. So unproductive days just feel awful.

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        Woah, that sounds rough. In my experience, when I have behaved like you described, I was burnt out and depressed. I’m currently recovering from a multi-month rough period, but with the help of an autism therapist. I’m slowly re-engaging in life while paying attention to how my body feels and accepting when I’m pushing myself too hard.

        I don’t know if that’s relevant to your situation, but I hope things get better and more comfortable for you 🙂