So i have autsim and dyslexia, also depression and i just feel like a loser who cant do anyhting im trying not to think that way but its hard. i also spend most of my time indoor becasue i dont like going outdoors plus its hot out there.

Ive been wanting to make games or something like that but i litteraly cant code or understand it and ive been reserching game dev for mouths, i also feel like im very limited, like for example my pc is low end or tha tim too scared to drive and idk how to. I just want to do somet hign creative that i can show with others wihtout having to go outside. im kinda nerd but not a very smart one, so theres that.

why must life be soo hard and sad?

  • TheFeatureCreature@lemmy.world
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    1 year ago

    Something like drawing or digital painting might appeal to you. Neither require a powerful computer (or even a computer at all if you use physical materials) and are inexpensive to get into.

    Another thing I personally like doing is baking! Gives my mind something to do and I get tasty treats at the end that I can have myself or share.

  • gharmonica@lemmy.world
    1·
    1 year ago

    I always suggest origami for these questions.

    It’s cheap, you only need paper.
    It can be as simple or complex as you’d like it to be.
    Plenty of free resources available online.
    Doesn’t need a lot of space, just a table.

  • sigh@lemmy.world
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    1 year ago

    Hey there, sorry to hear you’re struggling.

    I was kind of toying around with some of the same interests before I went back to school. Have you thought about web design/development?

    It’s easy to get started, and there is near limitless freedom in your ability to create things both from a visual, and front design perspective and a also ton of different programming languages for building apps. You can go full stack and do a bit of everything, or specialize in just about anything (seriously - design/ux, frontend development, backend development, devops, databases, digital maps, digital signage, salesforce, analytics, etc etc).

    At the very least, it might act as a gateway to upping your programming skills. Once you get more experienced if you find game development is still something you want to pursue, there is no shortage of javascript-based game engines 🤓

    I’ve been doing web development for the past 7 years and I’m still getting my mind blown and learning new things every day. I love it.

    Whatever it is you choose to pursue, don’t give up! Keep taking small steps, building small projects, and learning new things. It may not feel like you’re getting everywhere but it’s so satisfying once you start to feel the pieces come together.

    You’ve got this.

  • Chalky_Pockets@lemmy.world
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    1 year ago

    Are you talking about indoors at home, or are you willing to go somewhere indoors? If so, you could pick up playing pool, darts, or bowling. They’re all fun and you don’t really have to be good at them to enjoy them.

  • alnitak@lemmy.world
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    1 year ago

    I would try turning learning into a hobby. Think of all the subjects you want to know about, find people on YouTube who knows about them, and subscribe to them. If you want to know about game design, subscribe to game development and coding channels. There are passionate people covering every topic you can imagine trying to share their love for the subject, if you can find them. The more you learn, the easier it will be, and the more motivated you will be to try things.

    • piece@feddit.it
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      1 year ago

      While I agree, I’d also like to point out that learning on YouTube, while an absolutely viable option, strenghtens different learning mechanisms than written sources. Also, using YouTube exposes you to what the platform wants you to do - that is, consume as much content as possible without necessarily getting anything out of it, which might get in the way of actually learning.

      The main risk of, let’s call it “Social media learning” is that it very easily (very very easily) turns into entertainment, which is the opposite of actually studying.

  • FollyDolly@lemmy.world
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    1 year ago

    Oh god the driving thing was the Bane of my existence for YEARS. I basically made myself a desensitization program so I could learn to drive. Everyday I would sit behind the wheel with the car off until that wasn’t scary. (Took about a week.)Then the next step would be turning the car on (another fews days.) Next was putting it in gear but not going anywhere. Then pulling forward and backwards etc… until I could go out on the roads and get my learners.

    This whole process took over a month. If I freaked out I had to go back to the previous step. I based all this off of animal desensitization programs becuase I am Autistic AF. Sorry for the wall of text but I wanted to give you some advice and hope for the future!

  • PyonPyon@kbin.social
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    1 year ago

    No way, I just saw this morning that Harvard has a free online course in game development, and it’s available now. You should take a look and see if it interests you :)! You can do it from home.

    https://pll.harvard.edu/course/cs50s-introduction-game-development

    By the way, I also suffer from depression and I know how hard it is. I hope in the dark times you can find some compassion for yourself. I know for me, making it through the day sometimes is an accomplishment in and of itself. Try to see if you can practice not calling yourself a loser even when you feel like it. You are not a loser, you may be struggling right now, but if you saw a friend going through what you’re going through, would you call them a loser? Probably not. I try to replace those thoughts with “today, I’m not feeling like I’m where I want to be, but I’m doing the best I can, and that’s enough.”

    Anyway, wishing you well and I hope you can find some peace.

    • ShySpark@lemmy.fmhy.mlOPEnglish
      0·
      1 year ago

      not really i want to do things like make a game but as i said im limted to what i have and i cant code, ive also wanted to make a movie but idk how to edit or even how to do movie making, i just keep wanting to do something creative but idk.

      • MedicareForSome@lemmy.mlEnglish
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        1 year ago

        I think your goals are too big and you’re burning yourself out. As an autistic person it’s very easy to burn yourself out, very different than a neurotypical person.

        I’m autistic, ‘high functioning’ but I definitely wasn’t when I was younger.

        I’ve found that taking it easy is the best approach. You’re born with the innate ability to push yourself too hard. A very useful skill when running from a predator but not as useful for long term goals.

        Paradoxically, focusing on how to do less will allow you to do more. Finding little shortcuts in life that over time add up.

        For example, every morning I need 2 hours to putter about. Just do absolutely nothing to prepare for my day. A lot of the time, an entire day on the weekend will also be dedicated to doing aimless, random tasks.

        I used to hate myself for it and just feel so useless. But now I recognize that it’s just something I have to do to function. I view it as a positive because it’s when I have some of my best ideas. Back when I used to hate myself for it, I wouldn’t have any good ideas because I was so focused on feeling bad.

        Also, measure success in as many ways as possible. For example, let’s say you’re having a tough day and you get almost nothing done. That’s a win. Even though you were having a tough day, you got something done.

        Remember that easy is an effort. Easy on a good day looks very different from easy on a bad day.

        If you keep it easy, one day you’ll wake up and realize that easy has changed. The stuff you used to think was hard is the new easy and you’re reaching places you never thought you could.