Okay I am kind of in a crisis now. Don’ worry, I am actually doing fine. I earn money, have a wife - no kids - and own a house with my wife. We are doing totally fine.

But time. Time is the issue I have. I am 30 years old, five years ago I thought its going to take forever til I am 30 cause well it took forever to turn 25.

In a few days I am 31, basically only10 years younger than my wifes father was when I first met him 13 years ago.

Here I am, writing this, Sum41 - In too deep is playing in the background, out of 50+ people I had ten years ago only 3 are left. I cut down the other 40+ people cause they still drink heavy and the 3 I got left are like me non drinkers and just live their life.

If this is the next 60 years I am totally fine but my question remains of the topic: Is it it?

I sometimes think the most exciting part of my life was when I was 3 til about 23 years old. I do new things every now and then to keep things fresh so I tried to learn spanish and oh boy I quit after a month cause I am so lazy.