I don’t mean actively trying to commit suicide or being careless and stupid, you know, just feeling like if I woke up tomorrow and said to me, “Oh hey, like, you died last night” I wouldn’t care.
Is this something serious? Should I seek help or consulting?
Apathy can be a sign of depression, even if you don’t have feelings of wanting to commit self-harm. Given the general state of the world right now, it’s probably not entirely odd to be feeling that, but you may want to look at what else is going on with your personal life. If you feel like you’re stuck in a rut, are in a downward spiral, or just generally stagnating, you may want to look at breaking from your normal routine or trying to connect with others. While you may not necessarily need to get professional help ($$$), opening up to others about it can be beneficial, and not just random strangers on the internet, with actual real-world people. Even just getting out of your comfort zone and trying some new and unexpected activity can help change your perspective.